When I have a crush on a girl, I feel my system is corrupted.

There is a sense of vulnerability that seems to take hold there but I wouldn't call it "corrupted."

That sounds like Christian guilt.

Sometimes, after the act of love, I feel as though I've been depleted of my precious bodily fluids.

ANNA KENDRICK.

It's been a while since I've had a little bit of a crush on anyone. Some bad experiences cured me of that, especially the last time it happened.

I'm a strong man with agency. I don't need a woman (or anyone else) to make me feel complete. LOL.

I don't even know what that is anymore

Do you mean some bad sectors occur on your hard drive?

Have you tried turning yourself off, then back on again?