Sometimes people confuse situational sadness with depression.
People who know about and/or experience clinical depression know (should know) the difference.
'Craig' not only was admitted with depression, but with anxiety (depression and anxiety frequently go hand-in-hand), 'stress vomiting', and suicidal ideation. Really not a waste of time to admit someone manifesting these symptoms and disorders.
I myself was cruising through life fine in my early 20's until I got hit by my first panic attack. Totally out of the blue, brought me literally to my knees, and nothing in my immediate environment to connect it to (which made it scarier). During the course of a year, I showed up at hospital emergency rooms probably a good 5 or 6 times, thinking I was having some kind of heart attack. I endured all kinds of medical tests all for naught. I finally was told my then daily panic attacks were 'all in my head' and to see a psychiatrist for ‘insight therapy’.
Ha! For someone like me who prior to this was very healthy, in-shape, on top of my game, and of very strong character, being 'all in my head' (mentally) just didn't ring true. Now, this is before Anxiety Disorder became a nightly infomercial. I thought I was literally going crazy and so did close friends and family members, until I finally received a true diagnosis, found ways to manage my attacks and thankfully I haven't had one now for a few years. I also tracked back through my family history and found that women on my mother's side of the family had manifested undiagnosed symptoms of adult-onset anxiety disorder, going back at least 3 generations (that I could find).
For several months, I hoped and prayed that I would one day go back to feeling like I had before my Anxiety Disorder as the ticking timebomb it was finally 'went off'. However, I am not 'cured', but I do find ways to 'manage'.
The body is a machine. Something goes out of balance and we can experience symptoms of an imbalance, whether it is hormonal, electrical, chemical, a combination, or whatever.
You can't just 'will' or 'smile' away an imbalance/disease, regardless if it is clinical depression or diabetes or cancer.
And, it has nothing to do with being of weak character.
If you don’t say something about it, you live with it in scared silence and sometimes undeserved shame because of the stigma that can be attached to it – being looked at or talked about as someone being ‘weak’, ‘crazy’, ‘whiny’ – pick the pejorative.
People who suffer chronic pain (another malady that for some sufferers does not show up conveniently on some medical test and that is often diagnosed based sheerly on patient report) go through similar indignities, disbelief, and the blame-the-sufferer attitudes of some folks.
Not good....
"I can't stand a naked light bulb, any more than..a rude remark or a vulgar action" Blanche DuBois
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