This gives me heartache =(

I've known I was gay, or at least bi, since my early teens. But I've always been too afraid of it, ashamed of it, to come out to anyone, and im 25 now.
My best friend might know though, since we've known eachother since childhood and he knows I never talk about girls or have even been seen making out with one, but we never speak of it. I enjoy most of the stuff the average guy does, such as cars, soccer, actionmovies, computer games, guns. I'm not effeminate at all, and I really don't like the fairy image "we" have in the media.

Watching this, I really feel like I've wasted my youth hiding who I was. I had my shot and I wasted it. So many times wishing I was someone else, not because of my looks or body, nothing wrong there, but purely because of sexuality.
25 now and no turning back. It only gets downhill from here.

Life sucks :(