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The Moment I Knew Amy was Lost


I had always been a fan of Amy's music because of my appreciation for Neo-Soul/Blue-Eyed Soul. However, I'm not really into the cult of celebrity so I didn't really pay much attention when her disintegration made tabloid headlines, outside of feeling a tinge of sadness when I heard tidbits here and there. I decided to watch the documentary to get reacquainted with her music because I haven't listened to any of it in awhile.

The moment in the documentary that affected me most deeply and made me realize that Amy was lost to the world was during her Grammy party. She had just won the Grammy for Record of the Year. This is the pinnacle of her young music career. This should be one of the greatest moments of her life. And yet, she pulls her friend to the side of the stage and tells her that this moment is boring to her without drugs.

When I heard that my heart sank. I feel a natural affection for Amy because I can empathize with her affliction for vices and taking things to excess. But even in my darkest moments I don't think I was so lost that a moment like this would have made me yearn for drugs.

For those who know her pain first-hand, I hope you find your way through it before you become lost to the world as Amy was lost. For those who don't, I hope you find the sympathy to not judge Amy for being human, because we are all one mistake away from losing our way.

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I agree, that's when I knew she was in trouble. Well obviously I knew she was going to continue abusing til the end to begin with because I knew what happened to her but it was very telling. It still is possible to come to enjoy life again without drugs but it takes time.

People who rip on abusers and call them down are always *beep* *beep* em. People should try and be understanding and helpful.

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She "appeared" to be genuinely overjoyed to win the Grammy.

The reveal of what she told her friend was shattering.

Showed she was partly putting on an act that she was overjoyed.

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I like to think her immediate surprise and thrill were genuine. That sort of thing zings even an addict's pleasure centers.

The conversation with her friend was perhaps more existential. About the entire experience. Life itself. Or even, literally, the minutes following the win. Knowing what she was in for.

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Watching the documentary I knew Amy was lost the second Blake came onscreen. Why couldn't she see him for the knob he obviously was?

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>And yet, she pulls her friend to the side of the stage and tells her that this moment is boring to her without drugs.

That is clearly one of the moments I missed due to difficulty with pronunciation and clarity of the spoken word in some of the recordings. Wow, that is amazing that she said that.

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Watching the documentary with the subtitles on helped. Her reaction to winning the Grammy made me cry. She seemed half shocked, in disbelief that she was good enough to win it, I think that was her lack of self-confidence showing through. Then telling her friend it wasn't fun without drugs, that she basically couldn't feel anything without them.

That is a gut wrenching punch. What is supposed to be one of the happiest moments of a singer's career and she couldn't understand the magnitude of her achievement without drugs.

I think I feel sad the most for her two friends, the girls she grew up with. I mean they went from living in an apartment together as teenagers to watching Amy's life spiral out of control.

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>It's usual for an alcoholic &/or addict new to recovery not to feel any good feelings for nearly a year after choosing sobriety.

That's so interesting. I wish there were some sort of group for people who have that same problem without any sobriety/addiction issues. I could use an enjoying-life mentor. I suck at learning this myself, but I really need to.

I totally agree with you about laughter. I used to like dark movies, but now it's comedies all the way. The dark stuff is too close to the surface for me and ready to spill out. I need some happiness.

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I was thinking the exact same thing as you -- especially about her parents, who refused to actually "parent" her; only her late grandmother filled a parental role. Her dad missed so many opportunities to get her help and she always longed for his approval.

The moment I knew she was lost when she was finally able to give up drugs on St.L (still drank, but no crack or hard stuff) and her dad arrives not to be her father, but to be some kinda media-whore-manager with a documentary about "his life", I was like "Who the *beep* cars about your life, no one cares about you -- but you, of course". And what does he do? Beotch about some comment she made over having to do a photo opp with a couple. Like the ol'fart could only see the dollar signs, not his own kid wasting away.

I hope that this is a cautionary tale to all of those parents out there today who insist on being their child's BFF when what they need is a parent. Amy Winehouse wouldn't have lasted as long as she did had it not been for her pseudo-parents like her Nan, manager and bodyguard.

What a loss her talent if for all of us. And yes, I do hope that the line in Rehab "...if my Daddy thinks I'm fine (and in no need of rehabilitation") haunts him to his grave, as he still refuses to accept any responsibility for his own actions/lack thereof with respect to his daughter's untimely death.

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https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=47HS40C_D3g

This is probably the best moment of the movie. There is this genuinely funny moment when she reacts to Justin Timberlake's album, then her reaction to winning a Grammy, and then one of the most heartbreaking moments of the movie when she makes a confession to her best friend.

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that was really hard to watch without crying.

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it was =/

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