A Personal Review


My wife and I were fortunate enough to attend the Return to Zero world premier last night and we connected with the film so strongly that I wanted to recommend it to everyone.

We lost our twins, Marshall and Spencer, ten months ago on May 2 of 2013. They were born perfectly healthy at 22 weeks 3 days, but they just weren't ready for life outside of the womb. They each lived for only an hour. When we left the hospital without our boys we came home to a life that was forever changed. We held each other, cried, and began the process of searching for answers and one of the places we looked was to Hollywood. As we spent days on the couch we wanted to watch a movie that depicted what we were going through. Fictional or not, we wanted to actually see someone else make it out of the hell we were in and more importantly, we wanted to know how they did it. We read synopsis after synopsis and could not find ONE movie that told the whole story of losing an unborn child—not premature birth, miscarriage, or still birth. However, we discovered that one was in the works and it was called, Return to Zero.

Fast forward 8 months and it just so happened that the world premier was right in our backyard. And coincidentally, today is the day that last year we found out our twins were boys. So, this was a special weekend for us. We had the opportunity to watch the movie with the writer and director, Sean Hanish, producer Paul Joconi-Biery, and Sean's wife, Kiley. We then even got to have dinner and hang out with them and some other great people who have shared our same experience. What a great night.

The movie was incredible. It’s a true story about a happy couple who were pregnant with their first child when just before their due date, they learned that their baby had died. What’s unique about Return to Zero is that you follow Maggie, played by Minnie Driver, and Aaron, played by Paul Adelstein, as they go through the entire process…a devastating journey previously reserved for only those who have suffered a loss themselves. The writer and director, Sean, got every single little detail right—every emotion, every shared look in the delivery room, interactions with family, dumb comments made by people, and even the humor that’s part of the healing process. Yeah, when we’re grieving, we still laugh.

When Aaron and Maggie leave the hospital they begin the healing process, which we quickly learn doesn’t exactly happen in a straight line. We follow them through a handful of, ah, how should I say this…not so helpful coping strategies. Since the trailer hasn’t even been released for the film yet, I don’t want to say too much, but since the website synopsis says it, I think I’m safe to say—they do end up getting pregnant again and I’m sure you can imagine the anxiety that they must have after going through their previous loss.

Minne Driver and Paul Adelstein were spot on with their portrayals of Aaron and Maggie. They are 100% believable as a couple, and as grieving parents of a lost child. Their raw emotion had my wife and me feeling like we were reliving our own tragedy up on the screen, which surprisingly, was comforting. The supporting cast gave equally awesome performances. To name a few, you’ve got Alfred Molina, Connie Nielsen who you might remember as the wife of Maximus in Gladiator, and Emmy award winner Kathy Baker.

All around, this is a wonderful movie that needed to be made. Unless people have gone through a similar situation themselves, I don’t think that they really understand what parents go through when they lose an unborn child. For anyone who has a lost child of their own and feels alone and misunderstood, Return to Zero will show you that others have experienced exactly what you have, and they made it through. If you haven’t lost a child, but know someone who has, this movie may help you understand what we go through and that it’s OK to talk to us while we grieve, and more likely than not, welcomed. And for those who have gone through a loss and find yourselves with a family member or friend that just doesn’t get it, as someone suggested last night, just tell them, “Don’t talk to me until after you’ve watched Return to Zero.”

☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆☆ Go see this movie.

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So sorry for your loss. I saw a commercial for the movie, and headed here to find out more about it. I was pregnant with my first child, a boy due August 1998. Unfortunately, on June 22nd, the doctor could not find the heartbeat, and labor was induced and I delivered him the next day. With medical intervention, I delivered my daughter the next August. The pregnancy was not enjoyable, I was never attached the way you should be, only after I heard her cry could I relax. I am hoping that this movie deals with the emotions of stillbirth, and subsequent pregnancy.

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I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my identical twin boys due to anencephaly in 2008.

It has changed me. I have 2 daughter now but I agree with last poster.

I couldn't enjoy any of the pregnancy. I kept thinking something bad would happen. I couldn't be relaxed until they were born.

I can't wait to see this movie . It will be on Saturday on lifetime

I saw Minnie driver this morning on the show the talk. That is how I heard about the movie

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I'm very sorry for your losses. I'm very excited to see this movie (and also nervous, I know I will sob through the whole thing). My husband and I lost our daughter Kayla in March of 2013 at 22 weeks 2 days. Like your babies, there was nothing wrong with her, but she wasn't ready for this world and she was born sleeping. My body failing her, and not being able to protect her gave me so much guilt, and still does.

As other posters have said, while I was so thankful to get pregnant again three months later, I couldn't enjoy most of it. I was so scared of losing this one too. She's here now, and the love of our lives, but still I am waiting for something to go wrong. For the other shoe to drop. I hope this movie can help break the silence about pregnancy loss and help people who haven't gone through it to understand those of us who have.

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It's heartwarming to be connecting with other parents who have experienced this saddest of losses, the death of a child, but who care enough to respond to each other online. Having a stillborn baby is an especially lonely grief because no one else was able to get to know your child and very few people understand the depth of pain it causes.

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"...but still I am waiting for something to go wrong. For the other shoe to drop."

^ This. Thank you, alzanden-1, for putting into words what I never could, enough to explain how I was feeling after my second devastating miscarriage, and subsequent successful pregnancy a year later - he's five now, but I still feel like this.

I am so grateful for this movie.

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Thank you all for sharing your stories. I was moved to hear Minnie Driver talk about this film in an interview. She is obviously emotionally invested in it and she talked about how people are willing to make movies that are violent or explicit but not willing to make movies that tell this story.

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