Hmmm, an addict with their drug of choice in cabinet?
As someone who has dealt with addiction problems, namely heroin and crack, when I was trying to get clean I did not keep a "break in case of emergency" stash in my medicine cabinet!
There's such a thing as "triggers" and having a cabinet full of them would be the quickest way back to addiction avenue.
Get your house in order woman! Those pills shouldn't have been there for you to try and throw away in the first place.