Beth, Find a support group
And I don't mean that sarcastically or facetiously, fact is there are other mothers out there who have endured the same, how are they coping and continuing to live their lives, finding their way back to happiness they deserve?
It was actually borderline creepy disturbing watching this film, Beth alone (no mention of her rumored romance with Ramsey widower) and unwittingly crashing her 2nd-ex-husband's birthday party.
Tune in to hear Beth's lines, she tends to repeat the same ones over and over:
"we have to get him!"
"this is our chance to get him!"
"and then we can get him!"
"and then we've got him!" and
"he's finally telling the truth!" alternating with "he's a liar!"
repeat the above sequence throughout most of the movie and that is at least half of the script
all the national attention and support for her cause faded over the 5 years and she seemed left all alone with a pile of feelings she never figured out how to reconcile with the fact that because she's still here she's entitled to lead a fulfilling life
Good Luck to you, Beth. You still have a life left. Losing Natalee did not mean you had to lose yours too.