AHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!! (Series Spoilers Galore!!!!)
Tears. Emotions. Feelings. I just finished watching the finale and my mind is still reeling trying to put it all together. I feel like I just got done watching something great, but I have yet to place all the pieces. I think a series rewatch is in order. For now, I'm just going to try to work out my thoughts stream-of-consciousness style.
First of all, I want to get some preliminary notes out of the way. I've been lurking this board for awhile and I've read a lot of people's thoughts and theories as to how to series was going to turn out, and I'm happy to say a lot of them were spot on. Ryan finally saw Wilfred as a real dog. Check. Ryan didn't get his happy ending with Jenna. Check. IT WAS ALL IN HIS HEAD. Holy sh@t. We all suspected it from the start, but actually seeing all the weird Fight Club imagery really puts all of the pathos in perspective. It's so fundamentally sad at its core. Those shots of Ryan talking to himself and playing both parts while (real dog) Wilfred just sat there is so tragic. The fact that all of this took place in his mind, that he created this whole elaborate fantasy, including all the different explanations of Wilfred is so complex and convoluted on so many different levels. (Sidenote: That's one of the things that I loved so much about Adaptation.)
And although the series seemed to pin this down as the definitive answer to "What Is Wilfred?" I still find myself doubting it. I guess it's because throughout the run of the series, the show has been teasing and hinting at so many possibilities, I still don't believe it. In a way, I thought it would be more esoteric and intangible, but I guess it still is in a way. After all, there was that whole red herring/out of left field talk about Ryan being The Chosen One and raised in a commune and all this talk about good/bad gods (how could Ryan have predicted all of that ahead of time?). It just makes you wonder how much of it is fantasy and how much of this last episode actually takes place in the "real" world. Could it still be plausible that Ryan died at the beginning of the pilot episode? All the hazy imagery at the end sure made it feel that way (anyone seen The Zero Theorem?). I really like how throughout the series they explored EVERY SINGLE POSSIBILITY and they're all still possible, depending on how you choose to look at it. We get to have our cake and eat it too.
So how do I feel about all this? I don't know. I love it. But I feel sad. I guess I need to "have a good cry about it and then let it go" like Wilfred suggested earlier in the episode. I want to say, I really like the way these last two episodes took their time and really let us say GOODBYE to the characters. The whole experience of Wilfred dying at the vet (after being dispatched by a car two episodes ago; the fact that we finally see him as a real three-legged dog makes it even sadder) and Ryan saying his goodbyes, and the clip show elements, and all those tender moments shared between the two...it's working on so many different levels. I'm still trying to wrap my head around the fact that he's in love with his delusion. After all, the final episode is entitled "Happiness." Ryan's happy place is with Wilfred. And he's no longer relegated to sitting in the basement and hiding his secret from the rest of the world...now he's able to accept it and transform his mind anywhere he wants. (At least that's what I got out of the final scene...when he looked into the door that leads down to the basement, he went to the happiest place he could think of.) The more I think about it, the more perfect it seems.
And can I just say how HAPPY I am that they didn't go the traditional route and have Wilfred's death be a martyrdom for Ryan and Jenna? I'm glad they kept that true to the spirit of the show (and something someone like me can actually identify with). The fact that he accepts his insanity in such a positive and upbeat way is oddly endearing and lovely. It's something I can relate to in my experience.
Well, that's it. I'm sure I left out some stray thoughts. I'll spend the night reading other people's thoughts and theories online until I pass out from sheer exhaustion. I still intend on watching the series again from the beginning armed with all this new knowledge. The producers said they knew where the series was headed from Day 1, so I feel confident that new clues will pop up in subsequent viewings.
I still feel weird about it ending. I don't want to accept it. Like with Lost, I'm unable to "let go." I don't know where to go from here.