So sad...

I've seen many Czech gay porn, but I have never seen or heard of Aaron Hawke before this documentary (his real name is Ruda Prochazka). I came across this movie by chance while I was surfing the internet and got curious on how gay porn stars act behind the camera.

I'm 25 ,same age as Aaron. I was this close to crying while I was watching how Aaron Hawke was living his life after the producers got bored of him. Because as they said "People want new faces." He was homeless, drunk in the middle of the day, he didn't look clean, and he needed a haircut ASAP. It really breaks my heart to see him wasting his youth the way they showed it on this documentary. I feel like these boys were really used even tho they were the ones who asked for it. I feel like they weren't given the chance in life to do something better. Just because they grew up poor, and maybe on the streets that doesn't mean that they aren't capable of more than doing porn. I know that no one forced them to do what they did, but that also doesn't make them the bad guys.

Aaron looked happy in this movie, he was smiling in almost all the scenes while he was interviewed, and you can see him laughing and even making some jokes about him being homeless. But I don't think he's laughing in the inside, maybe he was trying to look happy to other people, I don't really know. I was watching him carefully while the man behind the camera was asking him questions, and when he answered them he was saying the first thing that pops into his mind.. he was speaking from the heart. That what made me really feel for him, that he looked so innocent and naive.

I really hope that things are better for him now. I really do :(