This movie effed me up as a parent

I totally understand why you did that. We just never know, do we? All parents - especially mothers, I think - see their children as adorable little 2-year-olds, whether they are in their teens or their forties. Have you read Jodi Picoult's Nineteen Minutes? It's very similar to this movie, and includes the view-points of several characters, including the shooter's mother, a teen who avoided being killed because her boyfriend jumped in front of her and took the bullet, and a judge. If this movie made you want to hug your son, I'm pretty sure that you will enjoy the book and you'll want to give your son lots of hugs.

Yes, I watched this a year ago and cried my eyes out because I was imagining that this was my (at the time) 17 year old son. I think this movie is one of the very few that I could rewatch because it was so painful. The pain and grief that these 2 parents were going through (and the same for any parent of a mass murderer) really gets to me.

The thought of losing my son in any way is just so painful. But the thought of my son committing a mass murder, then killing himself is just too much for me to even bare. I can't even imagine the shock, guilt, regret, grief, and anger that the parent of a mass murderer would have to deal with. This movie really got to me.

ETA - I just noticed the poster who recommended you read 19 Minutes. If you have not already read it, I also recommended it. It was a book that really got to me and made me cry.


I'm an automatic steeple for depressed and lonely people. ~ Blue October