I think Ezri didn't, in fact, love Aharon. He was fulfilling a need. I kinda figured he was probably imagining Refa'el while sleeping with Aharon. That doesn't mean he didn't care for him or that he would have slept with anyone. I think Aharon was the only one who showed Ezri any kindness and that's what drew Ezri in and made him willing to substitute what he longed to have with Refa'el with what he could have with Aharon.
Aharon, on the other hand, I think was in love with Ezri in that way you're in love with your first love. Ezri was beautiful and talented, different and passionate, also vulnerable, but most of all he was the person through which Aharon got to discover a part of himself. That's why, I think, they say your first love is the worst (i.e. most intense?) one. Because it's you meeting yourself and what you're like when you're in love, what makes you fall in love and what falling in love is even like... And all of this through a particular person, so all of that intensity is tied to who them. That's who Ezri was to Aharon in addition to the "regular" things that attracted him to the young man.
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