I DIdn't See This Until After Robin Passed

I just watched this movie this morning. I've been having a sort of Robin Williams marathon all week. It feels strange crying when thinking about a man whom I never met, who never knew I existed, but he was such a large part of my life growing up.

I remember watching Popeye and loving it, I got a copy of Hook for my 10th birthday and wore that tape out we had to buy another one. Jumanji was a thrill ride from beginning to end. I love his portrayal of Theodore Roosevelt in the NATM movies. Dead poets society stuck with me forever. Mrs. Doubtfire, Aladdin, Patch Adams he did so much. And I watched them all.

I find myself crying randomly when I think about him. I remember feeling inspired as I have mental illnesses of my own, and severe depression is one of them. He worked so hard to get clean, get help, and he was thriving in life. He made me so happy. Whenever you saw him appear on screen for anything, you knew it was going to be awesome, because he was awesome.

This movie was dark humor. If you aren't a fan of dark humor, there is a chance that you are going to be completely mortified at it's content. I loved it, but what I didn't expect was for it to touch me so deeply. The last 5 minutes of the movie I was balling like crazy. I don't know why exactly. Maybe it's because lance found freedom in coming clean with everyone. You know the whole, "The Truth Will Set You Free" sort of thing. He loved his son, and he cared about other kids and thought that it would help them if he wrote something positive and inspiring. But then things got out of control, they went to far, and even he could see how absurd the distortion of who his son truly was had gotten. He had to put an end to it.

It kind of feels like there is a great number of people who are using Robin's death to cash in as well. Bring attention to themselves, bring 'awareness' to something they can't even be sure was a factor or contributed to his death.

I can't help but wonder if he's watching now, everything going on, all the people who are giving their 'reactions to Robins death' laughing at how absurd it is. Chances are, many of these people haven't even talked to Robin in years, but now they get on camera and pour their hearts out. Or at least seem to be.

I loved and still Love Robin Williams. He could always make me laugh, a lot of his work had more impact on my life and on me then I realized, he was such a big part of my child hood and I don't mind saying that I think he helped influence the person I am now. Different levels of humor, not always appropriate, but it's always good to see someone smile who needs.

Thank you for everything Robin, may flights of Angels wing you to your well deserved rest.





"You only live twice, or so it seems. One life for yourself and one for your dreams."