Why I hate being gay
I've hated being gay all my life. Unlike many other young gay men, it doesn't have anything to do with beaten up or rejected by my family and friend (though some of that did happen). Instead, I've always resented being seen as "feminine" and lacking in the traits that are seen as desirable in a man. It doesn't help that I tend to date "masculine" men, especially ones who are confident, dominant, and physically imposing, while I am short, thin, and soft-spoken.
Furthermore, as an Asian, my femininity certainly adds to the stereotype of Asian men as submissive and weak. My white boyfriends have frequently gotten comments from their friends that I was a boy toy or that I must be a "smooth bottom".
Any else feel the same way?