The Zen is crap and I hate the ex wife
That whole "here isn't here", "Maybe we're all angels", "I am not attached to this car" crap isn't remotely "Zen". Zen isn't philosophizing ad absurdity. Zen is far more practical. It is about actual results, not perpetually postulating. There's an interesting old story about a Zen archer. He is unbelievably accurate and powerful. He got that way by making the same motions thousands of times until shooting the arrow was as much a part of him as breathing. The story didn't include him saying he wasn't attached to the bow, nor did it include crap about shooting himself when he shoots another. He also didn't spend his time asking if he was shooting the arrows or were they standing still while the whole universe moved back.
The ex wife abandoned him in prison. Never even apologized. Treated him like a nuisance when he got out. Screw her. Why is he always trying to get back with her or mess with her husband. He's bothered enough that she's remarried but never takes it up with her? That's crap. The whole mother in law thing was crap too. His dad abandoned him AND refused to let his mother visit him in prison? Screw em. Oh and screw that woman who survived the murders. She love the killer like a father, is all lovey with the guy who sent the killer, but she treats Cracker Jack Zen Master like he's her enemy. Finally screw the wife of his old partner "Your false imprisonment was so hard on me, get out" someone kill her.
But the old partner still a beat cop after 12 years, that's just sad. How could he plausibly complain about the guy being hired as detective, if he had any ambition he'd have been promoted years ago.