I was repeatedly raped by a 2nd cousin of a close friend of mine (my friend and his parents were really close to my parents, we all had a cemetary as our backyard, Wasatch Lawns, SLC, Ut). Movies like this, "Mysterious Skin" (I'd like to get some recommends), as well as even weird little movies like "Daydream Nation" etc.
About me (kinda long):
I spent a lot of time there, It was normal for me to walk among the tombstones. (Which is the working-title of my autobiography of my early years, even though I'm only 28). I was raped, brutally, right next to a tombstone and I remember thinking how oddly poetic it was, not that first time, another time where the man let me choose the location along with his "daughter" (no idea if she was or not, she was a year younger than me, I was nine going on 10). I also am a high-functioning Aspie. Afterwards I became obsessed with self-defense and violence.
I was lucky enough to be able to return to my parents, especially my father, a 3-tour combat vet in Vietnam and a man who is not squeemish like my mother, he can handle knowing what I went through and be there for me. The most deadly "bleeding-heart" I know :P. Taught me Jeet Kun Do, Krav Maga, I got into boxing.
I ran away again and got a gun after more bad things happened to me. Didn't ever have to use it, directly, anyway.... Did some bad things to worse people. I can't even count on both hands now the number of times I've had a gun either point at me, shoot at me, shoot in the air around me, general direction (literally had this happen in the parking lot last night, I was completely uninvolved as a witness and was in the shadows behind a bush smoking a cig when this man walked right past me then fired his gun into the air, I had my Ka-Bar Tanto with me and came scarily close to putting it in the back of his neck, had to write up a 3-page police report, help the cops find the casings, a cop literally drove past this *beep* and somehow they couldn't find this very distinct-looking person! Anyway...another day in the life).
This man, Tony, the one who put me on video in child porn that might be sitting in a police evidence locker, FBI, maybe a pedophiles den, maybe Tony's. Maybe he's still out there. If I saw him I'd kill him. I don't think I would, I know I would. He made me think I loved him, he put a needle in one of my testicles, which rotted and had to me removed two months later. The pain is indescribable next to when I lost part of my right eye, had my hand burned. One of the worst pains was when I was stabbed in the side and it hit an entire nerve cluster and the person tried to gut me but I stopped him.
Fight after fight, running into trouble. Sometimes it was my fault, sometimes it was just the places I was having to live. Scrapping like mad dogs. Underground fighting once my eye went because I couldn't legally box anymore, in spite of having hid the injury fairly well (initially, then the eye got worse-looking) and winning seven fights in a row. That was my own prospect to get out of the *beep* at the time.
Now with cannabis legalization on the horizon, with Obamacare (though UT is one of the 19 states where I actually have to make $1,000 minimum to get any healthcare whatsoever, mental or physical, and if I make too much, something like $1800/month, then I don't qualify, it's *beep* I have new prospects, things I'm good at are keeping a cool head under pressure, I have 2/3 completed my training as a paramedic and have combat medicine training. I went to the U of U for a year and studied horticulture, criminology and psycho-pharmacology (and I want to do more, as I am very *beep* far from an expert) ....I also teach stage combat, I'm a fencing student, collect and make knives and staffs.
I'm a liberal but I own some guns (legally). Not a big fan of using them, not a big fan of them at all, they are overused and too readily-used. But I am glad I also had my snub-nose revolver on my ankle last night. (honestly where I was the Ka-Bar would've been easier for self-defense....anyway, nothing to brag about, it was scary as hell in spite of me not shaking or freaking out I went to a very dark place, having to ready myself for that)
PS: And I'd be up for taking recommendations on any movies like this. I'm straight but gay, straight , bi, whatever. After what was done to me all the lines are blurred anyway, I just know I like girls.
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