Ben is a coward (SPOILERS)
He wanted to do all those good deeds to make himself feel better, it had nothing to do with him caring for any of those people, the fact that he eventually topped himself proves that.
Ben did not love anyone, love does not commit suicide, love does good works solely thinking of others rather than making oneself feel better.
Ben was not a hero or even a good guy, this is what happens when people don't ask for God's Grace. Jesus is the only one that can remove guilt, no amount of good works can do that. Plus life is only for God to give and take away, no one has the right to take anyone else's life or their own life.
Job 1:21
Ephesians 2:8
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