Dear Gene

Not sure where else to write this out dude, but I just wanted to say that I still miss ya and I hope that you're comfortable now. It's been a long time since Capcom and a while now since you took off, but I still think about you all the time and can remember all the funny jokes and things that we did while working together. I only wish I could have taken you more seriously, but I was in the same place you were in at that time. I could tell you now that life gets better because it has for me, even though I haven't brought myself up to the same career level that I was at back then. I really thought things would only get better after Capcom, but my own self-awareness has halted that dearly and I'm very much still struggling to make something of it all. I sure could use you right now but I understand why you did what you did. I came close myself more than once and I had planned a trip to follow in your exact footsteps but I got a better hold on myself and decided that it would be harder to go on than to check out. I'm a bit of a self-torturer in that regard. But it's paying off because I'm happy and I've seen a lot of great things since then and have experienced a lot of joys. I've experienced a lot of fear and pain and loss of hope too, but the good parts are outweighing the terrible times. You would have been ok if you could of pulled through it and had more faith in yourself but you were in a much more dire situation than I was in so...well, what happened happened right? Can't change that now. I can only say that I use you all the time and I still remember your voice and your clothes and your face and your hair and the smell of your smokes and I can still see you standing there. I'm thousands of miles away from California now and I can still see those steps and those concrete benches and tables and trash cans and the dildos walking in and out through those hideous doors. I know you can see me and I know you can see what I'm doing and I know you know that it's going to be great and I know you know that you should of held out and been a part of this man because it IS going to take off and I am going to be set and that's already set in stone and you would of been awesome at it with me because you had what, 8 years on me in doing it already? You would of ruled if you could of adjusted to the theme. Anyway, I hope that you get this message through the airwaves as writing it makes me feel like we can still talk. I know we weren't the closest of friends, but the truth is that you didn't seem to have any interest in being close to anybody. It's like you were embarrassed and that made you standoffish and just a little too bitter to try and get closer to. But you know we think the same and we would have been best pals if either of us had of realized it and yes, I could of saved you. I'm sorry bud. I'll think of you until the day I die. Piece.