Can't Stop Thinking About It..(Spoilers)

So, last night I decided to sit down to watch this movie to pass some time before going to bed.

Now today I woke up and can not get this movie out of my mind. While watching it last night I did feel some sympathy for the torture Eliott was being put through both physically and mentally day after day, for over a month. I can not begin to try to comprehend the pain having those acts inflicted upon your body would cause. I also found the end somewhat confusing. Nim suddenly deciding to shoot Black Beard when he wants to remove Eliott's eyes. Yet she then goes ahead and allowed for one of his eyes to be pulled out with the spoon anyway, I suppose she thought allowing him to retain at least part of one of his senses before letting him go free would be a mercy?

However with all the mental and physical torture. The one thing from this movie that has hit me hardest and had the biggest impact on me emotionally (to the point I felt tearful during the scenes) Was when we flash back to his childhood and he steals the $20 dollars from the blind black boy and his brother tells their father who then makes the young Eliott repent his actions not only to the boy he stole from, but their neighbours. The fact that he at such a young age was willing to take advantage of someone else's vulnerabilities and then protest innocence (shouting from his bedroom that he didn't do anything) is what got to me most. Because that's exactly what he was doing as an adult. He was a vessel for taking advantage of the vulnerable, and once he was in that room, captured and being punished, he again protests his innocence and feels forced to apologise.

That is what I can't stop thinking about, that blind boy he took advantage of in his youth and how the reflects upon society as a whole and who the character was as an adult man. The message that we live in a world where people who take advantage of the vulnerable rarely pay for their actions is what truly sickened me.

(sorry for such a long post, I just suddenly felt compelled to vent all my feelings on this movie while the feelings are still raw)