whats with his face?

she doesnt admit it as such.


She says that Rudy was easier to raise, meaning basically that Rudy was obviously the stronger brother, never had anything to be self concious about, wasnt as sensitive.
That doesnt mean they favoured him it just means that of both their kids he'd have been easier to deal with if he came home in the day upset cos some one teased him at school.
With Rudy they could tell him he'd be fine and a kid would grin and be like yeah sure, with Jacob they could tell him the same and he's gonna walk past a mirror and be reminded that even if he's fine with who and how he is, he still has something about him that other kids will see and target.

I agree with people who say that looks arent everything, cos they're not, but growing up, i was a middle child and i had a few nasty falls in my childhood and i had a really crooked nose. I was the 'ugly' middle child amidst my four gorgeous siblings(they where/are the ones at school every one crushed on and when i told people 'oh thats my brother/sister' they'd look at me like 'where you adopted???)and also, as a typical middle child i was the sensitive/angry one who tookl everything too personally etc etc blah blah emocakes or something!
My parents couldnt see the bump in my nose. And when i say bump i dont mean in a vain way like the littlest dint in the hooter, it was a big ass bend but cos my parents love me so much, they just couldnt see it and when i'd come home sobbing because i was miserable at school cos people had given me *beep* they'd be so confused. Eventually my mum broke down because seeing me so miserable was just too much for her and they let me get it fixed even though they where like 'fix what...' lol, just cos they wanted to see me smile.
Which i did!!yaay!lmfao
my point is hat when you have attractive siblings (i cant even imagine if i'd had a twin, one of us would be dead from murdering the other, lol) your own differences or 'ugliness' becomes about 100 times worse, to you, than it really is,and your parents often dont know how to deal with you because whethey they can see your 'ugliness' or not(and most parents just cant) they simply dont know how to deal with their children loathing something about themselves when all they want to do is tell you you're perfect, something you just dont want to believe.

Rudy's and Jacobs parents didnt favour either kid.
The way i started to see it was that...because they where the twins, Jacob was SORT OF a constant reminder that they'd lost a son, but also...that they'd lost the...easier son....not the one they loved more, just the one that they...knew how to deal with, i guess.
There was a sense to me, for a while that his parents stopped seeing Jacob in a way...i cant explain it but like...he became invisible almost, if only while his parents where dealing with their own grief.

Plus, as to your point about, if your kid had a port wine stain you'd get rid of it, as some one already said, some times these marks are VERY deep through the skin, they're not just on the surface so removing them is a much more complicated process than you'd think.
I sort of took this to be the case with Jacob, or at the very least that the option had been discussed and was probably being held off until either Jacob was older or, maybe till they had enough money or something.

'Take what ya can, give nothin'back'