Did you feel sorry for Andy?

yes thank you so much. I also noticed that from what i've read nobody mentions a very important fact, when people are raped a large number of those rapes are what are called stranger rapes (and keep in mind im in no way diminishing the impact of that) obviously due to the rapist being a person they dont know or just met and is unlikely they'll ever see them again then theres boyfriends,friends family and so on and in some ways (again not diminishing) are worse then a stranger (although if its a stranger you think constantly is he the man that raped me so maybe its the same) because in my case and in melindas you have to see that person every day! you see him you smell him, which can lead to tasting and remembering and having anxiety and you watch your friends get close and you know what he can do to them but u cant do anything cuz no one believes you hes sssooo perfect (just like abusive husbands they are usually "MAN OF THE YEAR" and all of it just makes you sicker and sicker you lost all ur friends and they take his side u tell a teacher and they dont believe and the whole time this sick person is standing near you smiling and sneering knowing that you arent believed and he gets to torture you over and over again you dont even wanna no what kinds of thing i think up every frickin day every time i smell HIS cologne or have a nightmare and i wake up screaming and i can still feel HIS hands on me knowing he got away w it and was still following me 12 years after till i moved and when he sees me in public he watches and follows!! By the way i was 8 had to see him everyday blaming myself he lived 2 blocks from me stalked me every day for 12 yrs i fell asleep at night with the knowledge that he was 2 blocks away and (somehow not sure how)it was common knowledge in my neighborhood that my window didnt lock! i went to a childhood friends wake and found him there found out she was in his class and tortured myself for the longest time wondering if he did to her what he did to me! And i was even scared to go to my own fathers funeral afraid that if he read the obituary section he would see my dads last name and read under children and find me and decide to come and torment me. i live w the nightmares wich at times twist themselves and give his role another face.AND NOW I HAVE TO LIVE SEEING THE SAME TERROR AND PAIN AND HEARTACHE, DO YOU KNOW WHAT ITS LIKE TO HEAR GUT WRENCHING SCREAMING AND CRYING FROM A (AT THE TIME) 2 AND 4 YR OLD OR WALKIN IN ON UR NIECE DOING THINGS SHE SHOULD NO A THING ABOUT FOR ANOTHER 12 YRS AND HAVE TO LISTEN TO HER STORIES AND NOT SHOW SADNESS OR RAGE SO SHE WONT THINK ITS HER FAULT SO SHE DOESNT THINK SHE WAS BAD BUT YOU WANNA RUN AND SCREAM GET AHOLD OF THE GUY AND GIVE HIM A TASTE OF HIS OWN MEDICINE PLUS SOME AND THE ROAD THAT MY 5 YR OLD NIECE AND MY 3 YR OLD NEPHEW ARE TRAVELING DOWN CUZ SOME @$$HOLE WANTED TO PLAY "GAMES" AND U DARE ASK ME TO FEEL PITY NO FRIGGIN WAY WILL I EVER EVER PITY ANYONE WHO DARES TO HARM ANOTHER IN SUCH A HORRIFIC WAY I THINK ALL RAPISTS SHOULD GET A TASTE OF THERE OWN MEDICINE AND THEN SOME ESPECIALLY ONES WHO DO IT TO KIDS CUZ THE IMPACT IS SO MUCH WORSE ON A 2 AND 4 YR OLD THEN A 16 YR OLD(AGAIN NOT DIMINISHING BUT THE PHYSICAL AND EMOTIONAL DEVELOPMENTAL PAIN AND SO ON AND SO FORTH IS MUCH WORSE.) A GROWN MAN RAPING A 4 YR OLD IS GONNA DO ALOT MORE PHYSICAL PAIN AND DAMAGE THEN IF THE GIRL WERE SAY 16 AND YOU CANT EXACTLY GO BACK IN TIME AND DO WHAT HE DID TO YOU AT AGE 4 WHEN HE WAS 4 SO CANT GIVE EXACT MEDICINE TO HIM BUT YOU JUST ADD MORE TO THE PUNISHMENT! AGAIN YOU DONT WANNA NO WHAT THOUGHTS ENTER MY MIND AND IF YOU HEARD THEM YOU PROBABLY WOULD TRY TO HAVE ME COMITTED BUT I HAVE NEVER ACTED UPON THEM JUST DREAM OF IT! so no i dont feel bad for him andy or any other and im sorry if anything i said offended any one but like i said you dont even want to no what i think up but it is along the same lines as Xxsgt_pepperxX thoughts only much much worse if i voiced em ppl wud say im insane or disturbed and i maybe but keep this very last thought in mind i am what my rapist made me he stole my innocence and hurt me mentally emotionally verbally physically and sexually! I do not trust and all my relationships and how i see men was forever and permanently changed and set in stone the moment he took my innocence it may get better marginally w therapy and drugs but it hasnt yet not for me and i will never c justice for me & neither will the girls b4 me or since me but i pray that there wont be any more but if there are any in the future i pray they get justice and recieve a ton more help and support then i got! I hate who i am and i try so hard not to be what i am but i always end up back to this point cuz the dreams and his face continue to appear and torture and slowly destroy my mind and my life. they always come back always!
I AM AND PROBABLY ALWAYS WILL BE WHAT MY RAPIST MADE ME!