Bittersweet Documentary for Me...

I had no idea who Adrain Grenier was before I watched this documentary. My son who is 15 has been introducing me to film making and indie films.

The film interested me because I came from a similar situation...Parents had me too young & dad was never in my life. I only met him a couple of times at Easter. We'd get all dressed up and he'd take us out to show us off. Then one Easter he just didn't show up. It broke my heart. I've always wanted to have a face to face with my father. I had imagined it going different ways. So many years I was thinking it was because I was not good enough. I thought he was going to come one day...

What was different for Adrian is he did have such a strong loving mother that even if his father rejected the reunion, he always had a safe place to fall back on. His father was trying to do his best to make that connection with Adrian which is why they had the funny ending. I think it lightened up the movie.


For me, it hit me hard when I had children. My poor ex-husband had no chance. We had children young...We should have waited until my 30's. I was too independent. I was a people pleaser and passive too. Always afraid the other shoe was going to drop. My mom raised me to be self-sufficient. I am in my 30's now. I have always put my children first. I thought I had to be perfect. I spent my 20's being angry. I was depressed, and then in my 30's realized that it was time to "let it go"...I accepted that he was not capable of providing me what I needed as a child nor can he go back and make it all better. He was too young and did not have the skills. It does not mean my feelings were not valid. I learned to forgive him for not coming to "save" me. It was a bittersweet gift.

Adrian, you used your gift to help others. Thank you for sharing your documentary and talent. Stay true to who you are and it will sustain you. It takes a lot of courage to put yourself out there. That is truly what makes you authentic.

Best Wishes,
Lisa

P.S. I finally got to see Entourage. You just grew up 10 years in the last month...I am so glad your not like him :)