She was angry with herself for being so foolish as to walk down the street alone like that. She was angry because she had been fantasizing about being dominated and I think walking down that street was her kind of being dangerous, taking chances and it bit her in the butt. She was also very proud of being able to defend herself, remember the comment she made in response to her friend saying, "We don't have bodyguards" which was, "We don't *need* bodyguards". It turned out that she did need a bodyguard and that hurt her pride. As the guy that saved her basically said, you can't take on the whole world at once, no matter what gender you are.
Also, I think that she was embarrassed, as probably anyone would when someone has to save you from your own foolishness. Of course, there was probably another arrogant part of her that felt she *could* handle the two guys, even though it was very obvious that she couldn't.
Anyway, as I said, I think she went searching for a dangerous situation where she could fight her way out, secretly hoping to be dominated and she ended up in a place where that would happen, but nothing like her fantasy.
Most women have some kind of rape fantasy that isn't anything like the reality of rape, and they will tell you that very clearly. The rape fantasy isn't about being hurt or being dominated per se, rather it is an absolution of guilt and shame. When a woman is forced to have sex, she is guiltless. Most women in the world, either due to society's mores, or religion, or the true moving of their conscience (if you believe in that, which I do) feel some measure of guilt or shame after indulging in casual sex. Of course things are much, much different than even fifty years ago for women, but even in today's modern the double-standard remains. Women and men both lie about how many sexual partners they've had. The only difference is men brag that it is more that it is, and women pretend it is less. So the rape fantasy gives a woman a free pass to have casual, anonymous, exciting sex and she isn't culpable, she is guiltless, she couldn't help it - someone made her do it.
Now, if we could just link up the women who would like to try this in real life, with guys who could play this game without hurting or frightening her (too much). A guy can dream can't he?
"...nothing is left of me, each time I see her..." - Catullus
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