Does anyone know....

Does anyone remember what word Zach Galifianakis's character, Wallace, used to describe what was happening on the sub? He said something along the lines of "it's not coming from heaven or hell" or something like that and the word started with an 'm'. I know it was near the end of the movie. I can't seem remember and it's just bugging me!

they said I was walking the halls like a damaged little f*cker