I've had a few of those eureka moments, chasing a memory from your childhood (a film, taste, smell, song, memory) that sits on the edge of your brain - unsure if it was real or a dream, then you get closer to it and *poof* it disappears. I was happy when the film Flight of the Navigator, the taste of tuna salad with thin sliced celery, and (ironically)* the song Love Reign O'er Me all returned to me after tickling my senses through my adolescent years. My senses knew they existed, but my brain would not let me touch them, but they returned to me. I wonder whatever thoughts will return as real or only in dreams, will come into fruition. It's odd to me that we don't have a term for this sensation in English (or any language as far as I know).,,,, I wonder that if with technology (soundcloud, radio displays, imdb, the internet) if anything will ever remain a mystery if it was a thought before turning 5 -- with the instant information and cementing the memory. Maybe something's for today's youth. Because a memory you can't grasp is special.... Even though when you catch a whiff of it you are still light years away. It is frustrating losing the memory when you want it most, exciting to chase it, and puzzling and rewarding when you catch it [although it can never live to the buildup in your heart] Thank you for helping me remember all I can't remember. I wonder if I ever will get any of theses other tastes of sensation back that still remain hidden at age 31?
*ironically = your connection was with reign over me - a good film - but my connection is my huge love of Pearl Jam... Adam Sandler was instrumental (pun) in getting Pearl Jam to cover the song for this film <laughable - some Hollywood Exec wanted him to sing it and he recommended Pearl Jam instead>. Before Pearl Jam, I heard this incredible Who song as a small child in my parents car, and for a decade, felt I almost had a melody in my head, but the closer I got, the farther away it became... One day in 7th grade on an overnight field trip (1994) while walking in the rain, the chorus came back to me in the middle of the forest. I sang it at the top of my lungs to never forget it again... 3 years later, I heard it on the radio and got the bands info (already a huge Pearl Jam fan since 1992), the connection between this strange phenomenon and our parallel trains is amazing. Looking at my * post, I am now thinking I used the term ironically wrong. Maybe irony is just the interconnection and mysterious clockwork of our universe.
>also, I forgot about this movie until seeing it play on The Sundance Channel the other day... I watched this movie in my youth due to the term sex and in my early teens hope of catching some T&A -- what I got was a powerful movie I instantly understood with an amazing, dramatic, and only possible outcome end scene. I see you made your original post some time ago... I don't know if you will ever read this, but thank you for helping me remember the mysteries of life.
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