Read the book-never forgot it- thinkillskipthemovi e
Last lines of the book, for all of you who just don't get it:
When my skin had gone back to its even tone I slept with another man and discovered, my hands lying awkwardly on the sheet at either side of me, that I had forgotten what to do with them. I'm responsible and adult again, full time. What remains is that my sensation thermostat has been thrown out of whack: it's been years and sometimes I wonder whether my body will ever again register above lukewarm.
Sadomasochism is a serious mental illness. Period.