Where can I watch the banned episode?

"The episode "Same Sex Secret Crushes" where the gay guy gets killed."

The guy did NOT get killed on the episode. That happened a few days later.
CourtTV aired it as part of the evidence in the trial...as I mentioned in another thread, I happened to be able to record it when they showed it.

I don't think the entire show was ever shown. They were talking about this incident tonight on 'Cultureschock: The Rise of Trash TV." Apparently, Jenny Jones never gives interviews anymore. It was only the other talk show hosts that spoke about it.

It never aired.