Still have to continue the movie; it seems amazing but I had to stop...

I bought this film on recommendation of my father more than a year ago and I started to watch it and was very impressed with the performances even for the first 20 min or so. I had to stop the movie however since James Woods' performance expressed such a level of pain and anguish that it brought me right back to how I was feeling at the worse of my major depression, 4 years ago. Naturally, I can not compare schizophrenia and depression, but the pain and anxiety and unease expressed by Woods in his performance really hit close to home for me, perhaps too close at that moment, and I had to stop the movie. I have yet to continue the movie, and I really want to since I have no doubt that it is probably a great film all based on character development and acting, i.e. exactly my type of movies, but at the same time I am a bit apprehensive. It is terrifying to feel powerless and stuck in such a level of psychological pain and distress that you just do not know how to go on anymore. I am not saying that it is what James Woods' character was feeling exactly at that first table scene with James Garner, but the look on his face was just absolutely heartbreaking to me and it made me feel like he was feeling powerless and so...desperate. Anyway, I just felt like mentioning it here. Am I the only one who felt like that when I watched that first scene? What did the movie made you feel while you were watching it?

Bill Foster: I'm the bad guy?...How did that happen?