memories

When I myself was a boy of 15 years old I saw the movie Amice per la pelle on the Dutch Television on Tuesday May 19th in 1959. I was very impressed about the story and the personages.
It was so special that I remembered my whole live that specific evening.
Television in that time was a rather new phenomene in Holland and I remember that we had the first television in our small village.
I was alone at home, watching the movie and beeing very emotional...
Lateron I discovered that I am gay and remembering that movie it must have been one of my first conclusions that because of loving that picture so much should have to do with my homosexuality..... ( I think)
May be there is someone in the world who can help me to find somewhere a copy of this movie?.....
Peter from Holland (60 years old)