What's troubling Melanie?
At one point in the movie Melanie, the soft-spoken daughter of an Indian mother and an English father, remarks that she doesn't like herself. Later on, after the death of the child, she tells Captain John that they should consent to everything, rather than quarrel with things. He replies that in his case it was not a quarrel but a rebellion, and she responds that she once thought that hers too was a rebellion, but she knows now that it was only a quarrel.
What is she talking about? Captain John is clearly referring to the loss of his leg, but what was the quarrel/rebellion with which Melanie had to work so hard to come to terms? And why doesn't she like herself?