OCD

I remember reading (not all that much) maybe it was listed on the IMDb bio. Said Emily suffers from OCD. However, months back, she was on Howard Stern and she never mentioned having dealt with OCD. Said she had a stuttering problem. I don't go back and read things twice. So, my memory could be wrong in this case. I don't think it is. It's really not my business to know. Truth is I'm a sad and pathetic person. If someone tells me that they love me, my response is why? Not because I feel I'm unworthy of being loved. Or that someone could love me without needing me to bake a cake or something nonsensical like that. I feel like Harry Potter sometimes. I feel deserving of greater things. I feel capable of achieving those things. Yet, at the end of the day all I find is me sitting inside of my head. Unable to feel anything lost for words or choking on too many. And when I finally find words to say the person on the receiving end of the message spits them back in my face like a baby refusing broccoli.

“When you expect the world to end at any moment, you know there is no need to hurry."