I completely understand. Sometimes I myself am embarrassed by one of my own traits
my extreme intelligence. When I was younger I would pretend to be dumb sometimes because I was afraid guys wouldn't like me and/or I would be made fun of because I was of such a higher intellect than my peers. I took off my glasses for pictures, because my glasses made me look even smarter and I was worried about my future husband and children seeing pictures of me looking so unabashedly intelligent.
But as I grew older, I became quite proud of my high IQ, my wit, the fact that I'm usually the most intelligent person in the room, etc. Now I like to show off my beautiful mind every chance I get! I don't do this by running about, yelling to every passer-by about my incredible brainpower. No, I make my brilliance known by being able to discuss literature, film, drama, art, culture, philosophy, metaphysical poetry, world history, and so on...with the best of them. I also flaunt my glorious mind by way of my writing, playwriting, acting, lecturing, improvising, critiquing, and by furthering my education every day, both formally and informally. But then every so often, I tend to fall back into that negative state of feeling a bit too worldly compared to everyone else. In fact, I got to feeling that way again just yesterday, whilst speaking amongst a group of people who, apparently, felt the manner in which I explained a few things was a bit esoteric.
And then I happened upon your thread, ooohhhmmyyyy, and once again I was extremely pleased with myself
and the magnificent, intellectual, cultured woman that I am. Thank you!
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