They won't let me go to community college to make music

Does it have to be this negative? David lynch is saying to find a way to be creative and I know I'm not beloved celebrrity. It's negative and torture at community college and being judged by hardworking family members. I went for acting in 2011 at state college and had a mental breakdown due all the stress of reading I had to do and learning disabilities and misinterpreting if it was a comedy or not and got shit on by the students for my misinformed interpretation.
Zappa has a point, especially if you are poor or disabled in some manner that it's a negative experience.He was talking about public schools but I don't think it makes a difference other than youth seems to get a pass on what they want to do with there life but once you're over 40 in middle America you better go drive a semi if everything else failed.