I have rather weak nerves sadly.

Hence if someone somewhere shouts at me, tells me off, gets mad, threatens me, I feel like my whole world briefly has crushed, some danger lurks ahead, red and violet colours radiate, and well... No offense to anyone or anything, even with me soon to be 36 (this Saturday is my birthday), I just feel I realized it now.

Hence why before I made self pitying dramas online and also gotten back at others if they said were like you know not just disagreeing, and again, at one point I was only questioning stereotypes, it was something many people did SHORTLY and away from public eyes, and people instead just said "its still wrong" - vengeance related scenarios in typical examples in movies notwithstanding, oh well... But point is, I have weak NERVES.

Sometimes I feel like having a more sanitized and somewhat fantasy version of reality. Even in it I wouldn't like it if someone "you know what me" even if it wasn't, you know who, in typical examples - and yes I know I know, and again, no offense to anyone.

but anyways, and don't worry, I take Calms tablets, I sadly have weak nerves.

P.S. To that one community of many years ago, I once again apologize for repetition, provocation, curiosity, outbursts at users, demands for attention and especially indulgence and wanting to rule when I was failing on many levels, even if I succeeded on others too, but its alright now also. And you can guess indeed why I talked so much about MOVIES and certain less than usual tropes - and it wasn't just the proverbial "basic guy instinct thing" either.

My stuff about killings and nuclear weapons was an even BIGGER POMPOUS JOKE in an attempt to make me not be taken too seriously EITHER, it was also an attempt to have FIXED understanding of all human matters overall. :)