I just had a coffee with a good friend of mine from high school. Some good mories were discussed and even though I hated high school, there was a part of me that wishes I could go back. I'm different now. I'm more miserable now than I was back then, I'm less healthier now and I generally just don't care about stuff. I've turned into Clint "get off my lawn" Eastwood.
shareI don't miss high school exactly, but I miss the freedom I had back then. I miss hanging out with my friends, most of who I am still friends with, but with careers and families it's not the same. I miss the "newness" of some things. Now it's like...oh I've been there, done that, and wrote a book about it.
shareYeah, when I was younger I found myself more excited about simple things. I used to drink coffee before I went to school for a pickup, but now when I drink it in the morning, it just feels like I'm drinking it just to do it.
shareI with you on all counts..
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I saw that in high school and I have so much nostalgia for it.
sharehockey got me through high school and the new girls who showed up every year
shareThat's a pretty normal feeling, but I'm sorry it makes you a bit blue
Springsteen said it all best in Glory Days
I remember hating it, or at the very least just counting the days for it to finally be over, so I could never look back. It's not like I was bullied, or sexually assaulted, or anything so major. I was very depressed throughout most of it. My academic achievement was very high, I had lots of good friends, and I was quite successful in my extra-curriculars, but I always felt so imprisoned. It was a large school, and despite my success, I always felt very insignificant. I knew I was smarter than most of my peers, and some of my teachers. I am a lot smarter than my parents, and was already then. They felt the need to rigorously schedule all of my free time, to the point that I don't feel like I had a childhood, just one long series of appointments and prescribed activities. When I was eventually freed, I took it way over the line. I was freedom starved, and I overcompensated big-time. I am now, years later, piecing this all together and trying to have some semblance of a normal life, but I think I'll always wonder what could've been if I had parents who recognized and supported my interests and strengths, instead of foisting their own upon me.
I still have one friend from high school, my best. He and I have been physically separate for a long time, but we remain very close. He's my connection to that time that I've nearly blocked out. He's been going through some serious personal struggles. It's stuff that I dealt with emotionally like 10 years ago myself, and he's catching up to me. On an intellectual level, he's smarter than I am, but sometimes emotes like a little boy. We are sort of meeting in the middle. My own recent personal struggles are for another time, but I feel I've come a long way. Do I miss high school? No. I remember fondly, in a rosy glasses, bittersweet way.
As I said, I hated high school. However I do miss something about it. I remember being in grade 9 thinking that I was never going to finish. The four years were going to be an eternity for me. Then four years after I graduated, I couldn't believe four years passed since I was in high school. Now it's been 19 years since I graduated and sometimes I can't believe it's been that long.
shareTime does fly in the real world. Every year goes faster than the last. Except this year. Covid year is feeling draggy.
shareI changed high schools junior year moving in with my aunt. It was a better experience for me and one of the top high schools in the country, Dana Point, Ca. I then had to go back to my original high school, for Senior Year, also one of the top schools, Manhattan Beach, CA. Just shows you money can't buy you everything. I just wanted to get to College as fast I could. University of Mass, Amherst..Here I come.
share" I miss my youth. " - Billy Connolly